a new perspective

baltimore wilderness, sierras. august 2012.

coffee on the beach

yuba river. september 2012.

a table with no chairs

courtyard at new parish. september 2012.

the driest year on record

 

 eagle lakes area. august 2012.

two weekends in the sierra foothills. photos from the first, a backpack, and a poem describing the last day of the second. 

the driest year on record

coming back from two days on the river, 

feet sand scrubbed and body filled with under water stillness

discovering my car, al fresco, the driver's window scattered across seats front and back, 

not stolen, nothing missing, just the solid lack of funds waiting to be shouldered,

my awareness expanding to encompass all the facets of my life making it unlikely 

that i will ever be equipped to attract create revel in the love i so desire, 

moaning out my despair to an undeservedly attentive audience, 

smothering in my own self pity,

i find room in my heart to envy even bonnie raitt, 

over whom i thrash out my inescapable misery, 

who at least can express her sorrow

with levity, eloquence, and a sultry voice.

recovery. relief at the retreat of the surging hormonal pulses flattening 

my dying midwest factory town of self confidence, 

able, finally, to laugh,

but still not trusting my friend's assurance that i look good in that photo.

and maybe perhaps all of this due, in part or en todo, or at least strongly kicked off by 

your perfect nose, small as a hospital gown snap, turned up in baby sleep

and you, you , sweet little bunny, petite example of perfect newness and all that i don't have,

named lovingly for a mother long gone and a video game.

quit playing games

city hall lounge, emeryville. may 2012.

corporate oakland

oakland. july 2012.

glassy skyline

 

 oakland. july 2012.

wheel

santa cruz. july 2012.

an oak with broad flat branches

santa cruz. july 2012.

overlooking the sea.

this is my sister's back yard.

where do i want to live?

onions and peppers

santa cruz market. july 2012.

those peppers sold fast!

chicken, wire

santa cruz. july 2012.

park life

berkeley. july 2012.

he was amazing. dribbling, shooting, chasing the ball down. everything but dunking.

also, he had an amazing mustache.

exit

wedding reception, menlo park. july 2012.

dusk

maritime park, oakland. june 2012.

a still-light sky and the port behind us. oh, bike party, i love you.

flags of love

home. june 2012.

bachelorette

sonoma. june 2012.

my best friend's getting married on saturday.

eastertime

 pescadero. april 2012.

yellow all over

oakland port. may 2012.

bike party ride on a warm night. nothing like dancing to the top 40 next to the giant loading horses. while wearing a  yellow slip. hey, it was a pajama party theme.

happy 75th!

golden gate. may 2012.

looking down between the cracks to the rocking waves.

window mirror glass sky

oakland hills. june 2012.

i have a car now. i stayed late at work for a meeting and got out just as the sun had made up its mind to set. the air was breezy and damp, a little mean, but so refreshing after a long stuffy meeting. the light was fresh and nimble.

i dropped my things at home and sped upwards to the hills, trying to catch the last rays. almost did. top of claremont and then right, park on the side and walk along to the private hill; ignore the sign and wind through the dried grass. right leg hit by nettles. sit on a fallen tree and finally feel the cold (good thing you brought your jacket). watch the fast moving fog that must be forming right there over the bay because you see the break there but it never gets to you. then it finally does. figure out that the place where a darker blue fades to lighter faster that the rest of the sky is the earth's shadow, already overhead. let thoughts trickle through your head, not really paying attention, as the red smog deeps and layers upon itself, like icing.

jump down, walk back. find a shortcut through the windy hill roads. think about all the trips you can take now that you have wheels. think of the next place you want to watch the sunset from.